sometimes i wonder, if fate and love last?

you see two strangers coming into each other's lives, create the joys and loves. they eventually get married and procreate.

but can the love between them last? SIGH. seeing how my parents quarreled upset me. it gets on my nerves sometimes. i remembered when i was younger i would cry, followed by shouting at them to shut their nonsense up. Until now, what i could do is to just remain silent, not to side anyone, maybe just make sure i'm within their vicinity so that non of them would behave violently, i mean physically.

it upsets me. ): and definitely the phobia of two partners settling down sets in me. SIGH. they can quarrel over trival issues, and i don't understand why they can't be more understanding towards each other? would i be able to see them holding hands when they aged? never i guessed.

my family behaves such differently. i went to his house for dinner, and the feel is at the extreme. such comfort and warmth can never be seen over here, maybe the pseudo warmth and comfort infront of others. SIGH.

what happened to the vow they once sworn?

i'm so tired. Happiness has never been lasting in my life.

tell me what to do, i'm bearing through these, thank goodness. but.. the saturation of a sponge has a limit too, isn't it?

i need a break, behind these closed doors.