okays, warlords is nice, kinda draggy towards the last part though. (: i like the plot, the castings as well. (: andy lau aged, but he still preserves his good looks. hahaha.

anyways, i recommend white dog cafe at vivo. (: the food is nice. if you like extremely cheesy baked rice, white dog cafe has it. (: and thumbs up for their oreos & cookies frappe.

and nothing's new when i'm out with miss yew. we went on a shopping spree. OH MY GAWD. every shop has the sales going on. zara has 30% and i saw this dressy pants.. but it looks weird. (: topshop has its sales too, with additional 10% with UOB cards. and i screamed when i saw the top which i bought 2 months ago at 29 bucks was discounted to 9 bucks! DAMN IT! mango has up to 70% sales, unfortunately the bag i like wasn't on sales, and it cost 50 bucks. now i am trying to get my bro to buy it for me. (: OMG OMG, and i saw this green spag top at fox which i like it so much! and its only 14 bucks can!!! (: YESH, i shall buy it tomorrow.

AHHH, all the sales are getting me so tempted to buy the different things from the different shops! i just need the cash! ): SIGH.

OKAYS, shopping tmr and dinner plus chilling out with them. OH MY GOD, siok ling is going to get me drunk tomorrow. HAHAHA.

i still see no reason why i should settle marketing stuff when i am just solely in charge of logistics. WHATEVER. and you tell me you don't know how to snail mail? what a f**king lame reason. i was holding my temper well throughout the meeting and i called guimei and screamed at her right after the meeting. and the one in charge of marketing happily said that he got nothing to do. OF COURSE LAR, he EVENLY DISTRIBUTED the search of sponsorship to others, of course he got nothing to do lar.. fuck lar... DEN CAN I EVENLY DISTRIBUTE MY LOGISTIC STUFF AS WELL?!

DISGUSTING.

npcc is getting so disgusting with all the disgusting people. and trust me, yesterday's area AGM was so different. meera and me were so pissed that we feel like leaving halfway through. and if they hadn't control me, i will really include all the swearings when i talked to the new batch of CIs. fuck. irritating people.

OKAYS, results were out. i'm fine with it. YESH, disappointed because i thought i could do much better. at least my CAP improved slightly. (:

thanks kenny. hehehe. he made sure i was alright after i told him i'm disappointed with my results. THANKS!!!!

shake head.

SIGH.

in my own personal view, i think the 8th jan elections should not take place. i mean, it will definitely be more chaotic by then. Pakistan is seriously in turmoil now, and it's kinda disturbing to see the news on channel news asia. SIGH.

its the al-qaeda; they claimed responsibility for Benazir Bhutto's assassination. and i don't really like the way Musharraf deal with it.

Benazir Bhutto assassinated in Pakistan
Posted: 27 December 2007 2059 hrs

RAWALPINDI, Pakistan : Former Pakistan premier Benazir Bhutto was assassinated in a stunning suicide attack on Thursday that plunged the Muslim nation deeper into crisis and sparked alarm around the world.

Less than two weeks before general elections, a suicide bomber pierced her security cordon to shoot her in the neck as she left a campaign rally. He then blew himself up, killing at least 20 people, police and party officials said.

The powerful blast tore off limbs and shredded clothes. Many people ran in panic, screaming as they trampled over pieces of human flesh. Puddles of blood dotted the road.

"There was an enormous explosion, and then I saw body parts flying through the air," said Mirza Fahin, a professor at a local college.

"When the dust cleared, I saw mutilated bodies lying in blood. I have never seen anything so horrible in my life - just parts of human beings, flesh, lying in the road."

The slaying horrified world leaders who appealed for calm and warned that extremists must not be allowed to destabilise the nuclear-armed nation before the January 8 vote.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/319436/1/.html

omg!

my results will be released in 8 hours' time. bless me. ):

okays! so it has been a hectic week; shopping for xmas presents, xmas celebration, recuperating at home, boxing day celebrations(just shopping with my dearie gm).

errs, did i mentioned i spent a bomb on presents this year? sheesh. but its all worthwhile seeing their smiles, afterall christmas - season of jolly uh? (:

we had xmas celebrations at new york new york last year, with gift exchange for everyone, and its between the few of us, but this year, our dear nelson wanted something different and we attempted bbq at vivi's condo, with gift exchange for just one person and its between the many of us. (: we were kinda overwhelmed by the food, but it was nice though. (: orange syrup mixed with beer and we made sure kian ruey avoided that jug since he drives. vanilla ice cream with baileys, and it tasted good. we wanted that black label but everyone seemed shagged after that bbq and gift exchange, and oh well, we, being the most considerate friends of kian ruey, decided to just abandon the black label and go for the retro bottles of coca cola. (:

the few of us(the close ones) had the individual gift exchanges. (: hehe. guimei got us a mirror from ikea(i like it cuz i can hang it on my study table), viviana got us a keychain, sebastian got us this limited edition of a starbucks cup(he works as a manager in starbucks though), nelson handmade this nicey ornament for us, i got them this stupid mask from ikea.. HAHAHA. i shall upload some of the pictures later(no one dares to wear it), kian ruey decided to just save the presents for us and use the money to pump more petrol into his car to give us more free rides around. (:

i love christmas! hehe. the moments shared with them are just so enjoyable. (: OH WELL. and i decided to just take a rest at home on christmas day itself. daddy returned back just to celebrate with us too(actually, we don't celebrate). hahaha. but its a family day! (: love love.

boxing day! tuition with my boy and i gave him his present. he was delighted lar. (: i saw the smiles and the excitement on his face when i handed him the present. HAHAHA. and i made sure he only opens it after he's done his corrections. not that i'm sadist, but seeing the excitement on his face is quite fun. HAHAHA. (: kids will always be kids. (:

and miss yew felt that there should be post christmas sales, so we decided to head down town for a shopping spree. (: hahaha. a belt to match with my new dress.. and i am in search of a pair of stockings. should i just get black stockings or leggings uh? SIGH. and miss yew got herself a nicey dress! OH MAN! we realised that we are getting more dresses! and i just realised that i only left with 2 pair of jeans, 2 denim shorts and 2 quarters' pants in my wardrobe, and the latter is overwhelmed with 6 skirts and 5 dresses. OH MY GOD. ): okays enough of shopping. (:

dinner at nikon masu. the food is nice. we love the sushi and we love the rose bud tea too. HEHE. my first attempt to try on tea uh, with exception of the yeos' ice lemon tea. (: hahahah.

the last week of 2007 - the tiredness, yet the fun and love from them.

i still love alvin and the chipmunks.

maybe its better this way. (:

i'm in the christmas mood now. HEHE. not only that, i'm feeling damn happy. HAHAHA. OMG, only miss yew gui mei knows the reason. LALALA.

alvin and the chipmunks is nice. (: i'm falling in love with them. HAHAHA.

and i can pronounce that i'm officially broke. ): all my money is spent on: -

1) christmas presents and MORE christmas presents; and they don't cost cheap.
2) my shoes
3) my dress(yesh, i bought new dress AGAIN) -WHEE-

ahhh.. i've got so much to talk about, but i'm too lazy. maybe after christmas yah? (:

whee, celebrations tmr! (: i love them.

it gets on my nerves when people whom i don't know come into my blog and advertise for their own blogs. if i've offended anyone in particular, my apology. but i would appreciate if my tagboard is not being misused in any case; i simply just want my friends to tag, period. (:

my mum promised me a diamond ring! -blink blink- i don't need a bracelet since i'm always wearing my watch. i have a necklace and earrings from her. so now its a ring! (: hehe. happy me! she had initially disagreed because a ring should be given by my boyfriend and not her! what a theory! oh well, that's her logic you see. (:

the weather hasn't been that sunny these few weeks, and i don't really swim if it rains. SO! today's weather is quite on the bright side! and yesh! went for a 30 laps swim and some tanning! and i saw that channel 8 actor Adam Chen. oh my gawd. he's so freaking muscular! and he is so sexy lar! HAHAHA. apparently he was swimming just beside me and he smiled at me! HAHAHAH. -drool- LALALA.

a few things to settle tomorrow. sponsorship with chye whatt seng, shopping for xmas gifts before going cck to meet my dearie gf. (:

you feel the heartache when you see the one you love getting upset, but yet, you can't do anything to cheer him up. or maybe, it might look irritating to him if you just click on him in msn and ask about him uh. SIGH. or maybe, i have been thinking too much. MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE. sigh. that's what love makes me.

TAURUS - The Tramp

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight.
Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!



and this is so true about me. (: hahaha

i'm just so preoccupied in my own individual world that i forgot about this public holiday. i woke up and saw my mum still sleeping. i thought she's ill, and got quite worried. TSK. she ended up being amused by me. (:

and we were talking about my age. only then she came to realise that i'm turning 21 next year. HOW GREAT she is uh. OKAYS, i don't blame her, of course. (: but she said i don't look like i'm in my twenties already. HAHA. so we continued talking about issues like my future career and my future partner. she was telling my grandma that its time for me to find someone who will take care of me. okays, apparently she's ready to accept any guys i bring back home. ((: hahaha..

yesh.. so next year's 21st birthday i am going to demand a diamond ring from my mum. HAHAHA. suddenly i'm just into diamonds. (: and i want a ring actually. my mum got me a pair of diamond earrings on my 18th birthday.. and i think next year she should get me a ring instead of giving me ang bao again uh. ((:

daddy is going to renew his working license. and he is required to take 2 examinations. OMG. isn't it damn cool?! at his age of 55, he is taking examinations! HAHAHA. my bro is going to be his translator and i really think its kinda cool. HAHA. i don't even know those big ships' parts. imagine translating the word cargo. HOW I KNOW! (: okays, my dad is smart enough to get my bro as the translator instead. (: we haven't been seeing dad for SOOOOO long. he has been working on board since 1.5 months ago, only to return like fortnightly, on saturdays to give mummy and us the money and return back to ship. okays, i kinda miss him because this is the 2nd time he's away for so long. the 1st time was when he went korea. ): SIGH. i know, i do appreciate him, always. (:

the instructors sang this song for their performance.

it is that meaningful and touching. (:

Learn To Fly

When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
And you lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never to surrender to the dark
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that’s not the way
The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back
Feel you’re on the wrong track
Give it time, you’ll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You’ll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you’ll learn to fly

In your head, so many questions
The truth is your possession
The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope
And you will find a way to fight
The fears that kept you down
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that’s not the way
The story has to end

Looking at your situation
There’s so much that you can do
Now’s the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end it’s up to you
The future’s in your hands

Give it time
Then you’ll learn to fly

i remembered the last time i went for CIBTC ATC was as a trainee, and that was 3 years ago - june 2004.

this time round (december 2007), i went CIBTC ATC as safety officer. definitely it feels different, or i should say, it feels weird. i don't like this feel. thinking back, i have never been happy with myself in this different role. maybe that also explains why i have been wanting to take a step back in NPCC matters.

the disappointment came in when you actually witnessed how the generation difference plays a crucial role in this disgust feel. ): this is indeed the first time i saw the instructors so upset with the trainees till the campfire mood was dampened. guimei and i always have the utmost respect for the instructors, especially whenever nelson filled us in with how much effort they put in for a course. SIGH, is it really the generation difference that caused the trainees to be so different? is it really the generation difference that gave me the feeling of attending a sec 3 ATC camp instead of a CI-to-be ATC.

it breaks my heart during that 1 hour when the issue was brought up yesterday. i saw some instructors teared, others were pissed and disappointed. it breaks my heart seeing the trainees behaving like that and seeing the instructors so disappointed and pissed. SIGH.

the only benefit i gained being safety officer is i really can just put myself in the shoes of an observer and see things at a different angle. and yes, its the only benefit because i don't like sitting down doing nothing and everyone treat us so different.

anyway, i shall put a full stop at the back of this issue before i get even more disgusted with NPCC. afterall, the latter once changed me into a better person. actually.... the protagonists of this issue do not just include some of the yucky trainees, it also includes some of the staff officers - the way in which they portray the image of themselves in front of many. SIGH. i don't know, sometimes i get very irritated with the officers. AHHH. why am i seeing the ugly sides of people. this is bad.

oh well, this entry seems to be like a reflection from 3 years ago till now. so disclaimer stated, because it will be a very long entry uh. my close friends know how downcast i was for the past 2 years in terms of a relationship; whenever i looked at him, i would just transformed into a peak of emotional state. and before i head to the camp on monday, yanbo called and warned me that nky is going to the camp as well and asked if i would take it emotionally. HAHAHA. i know it is going to be awkward and it proved me right. throughout the camp, the both of us just behaved as though we are the like poles of a magnet - we repel and we did not talk to each other at all. i shall not deny the fact that i still carry feelings for him. there are a few opportunities where i could approach him for a chat, but miss hoo lee pin chickened out. HAHA.

OKAYS, believe me, i am not feeling the peaky point of emotions now, not to the extent of 'omg. i am so sad and i want to cry'. instead, i feel happy. i enjoyed the moments of silence with him when we were so close. and for the 2 mornings when i went to help prepare abit of the breakfast, he was there. and the feeling i was experiencing at that moment was just my heart thumping hard and fast enough.

you know, compared with the past 2 years, i know i matured in dealing with this. and can i just credit him for doing that? please, no sacarsm in this statement. HAHAHA. sigh. i really going to frame these 2 days of indirectly spending the moments(of silence) with him as the leepin's best moments 2007.

ANW friends, chill. right now, i will not u turn and ask him back. i will let nature takes its course and let God decides for me. I believe if both of us have the fate and destiny, i will be with him. i always think he's the best and errs, yesh, till now i still think he's the best guy. HAHAHA. okays, i know i sound so cliche and so melodramatic, but.. HMM. how many people can actually make you feel this way? not many, except some who are able to make you think of the fairytales stories with happy ending - my family and him have the ability to make me dream. (:

this is my fav thai song! hahaha. i was actually able to sing it in fluent thai last semester. not anymore, since i'm now kinda rusty in my thai. (:

i'm in quite a bad state now. SIGH.

i'm just tired and i just need that rest. that explains my hide at home and taking this chance to really relax myself and do things which i enjoy, for i know i don't really have the time to do all these in the upcoming months.

i don't know why i get myself in all these shit. ): first is ARSC. i am quite stupid to not realise that they get me into the committee because they have something up their sleeves. SIGH. then came another event which i kinda regret to be involved as well. and lastly is my unit matters. i had meeting with my OC today. i explicitly told her i want to take a step back. BUT, it was rejected. and i received the email she sent to unit TOs, CIs and my school's CCA HOD, for every matter in the email, i saw the sentence 'any clarification do not hesitate to contact leepin'. SIGH.

these are getting on my nerves. i am getting irritated by all these matters because they make me see ugly sides of people. and they make me feel that i'm losing myself.

somehow i feel that a few of my friends are in the same shoes as me, some of them are in the worse state. what has npcc did to us. SIGH. or maybe this is the month of depression.

i know i will be very irresponsible to leave things like that and enjoy myself. i can't too. i did all these for the sake of friendship as well. if i just leave like that, ain't it going to disappoint them? SIGH.

i just need a break bah. (: let me just enjoy whatever i can for this week and face my situation after that. and if you can't reach me by my handphone, you know i need that break, so pardon me. (:

okays, this is my latest addiction in youtube. (:

i'm watching this with fadzri on saturday, hopefully. since there will be atc this coming thursday, i'm sure there will not be any meeting for this week. (: and so! i will be slightly freed from one task. (: my latest deadline is going to be the submission for the 2 articles for nus npcc magazine. SIGH! next, it's going to be the deadline for the sponsorship with chye whatt seng. (: i'm looking forward to the combined POP actually. it's going to be quite a cool parade to look at! (: going to don the rank for my unit trainee. i don't really want it, but oh well. ((:

mummy is forcing me to work at her workplace. not bad as a telemarketer, but i just want to relax myself for this less-than-1-month break. (:

i am getting irritated with some stupid bitch. she is actually getting on my nerves. ARGHHHH... why are there people who always act as though they are the victims and being so vulnerable and gain sympathy from others? i mean, the latter are truly stupid and blind enough to fall into the deceit.

yesh yesh, and poor me.... being the straightforward one is labeled as some malicious woman. OKAYS, whatever people say... at least i don't put on a fake image of myself in front of others. (: and if people wanna listen to whatever bitches bad mouthed about me, den TOO BAD. they are stupid! (: i don't need these friends anyway! ((:

my disappointment. ):

Mourinho rules out England football manager role

LONDON (AFP) - - Jose Mourinho ruled himself out on Monday of becoming the new manager of the England football team, according to a statement on his agent's website.

FA chief executive Brian Barwick and Sir Trevor Brooking, the former England midfielder who is the governing body's director of football development, both made contact with Mourinho.

But in a statement on the www.gestifute website of his agent, Jorge Mendes, Mourinho said: "After Steve McClaren left the England football team, my representatives maintained contact with the FA.

"In that sense, I had myself useful discussions with Brian Barwick and Trevor where we exchanged ideas to evaluate the entire situation about the England squad and set the goals in case of real invitation being addressed to me," he added.

"After deep and serious thinking, I decided to exclude myself from being England manager despite it being a fantastic position for me.

this gave people another reason to own a transportation. (: okays ek, i support you to hurry learn your biking and get a bike. (:

this is insane larrr... didn't they just recently raise the cab rate? -stared hard- TSKKK.

this means i cannot go home late during weekends already. ): imagine all the raised rate including the double charge. -opens jaws-

i am procrastinating every single thing. (: from clearing my wardrobe to clearing my study table to settling my npcc matters. i believed the consequences for the latter is the worst if i continue to procrastinate uh. ):

aiyah, tuition starts tomorrow. (: i am going to request for an increase in pay. -cross fingers-

ComfortDelGro overhauls taxi fare structure
Posted: 10 December 2007 1854 hrs

SINGAPORE: ComfortDelGro, the largest operator of taxis in Singapore, has overhauled its fare structure which it says will better meet the demand for and supply of taxi services at different times of the day.

The changes will kick in next Monday.

Flagging down a Comfort or CityCab will cost $0.30 more at $2.80.

The metered fare has also been adjusted. It will cost $0.20 per 385 metres of travel for the first 10 kilometres. This will go up to $0.20 per 330 metres for journeys beyond 10 kilometres.

It will cost $0.20 for every 45 seconds of waiting time.

Instead of the $2 surcharge for peak hour travel, there will now be a premium levied. It will be 35 per cent of the metered fare.

As an example, ComfortDelGro says a 9 kilometre trip off-peak will cost $8.40 while a trip of the same distance during peak hours will cost $14.35.

This is comparable to what the same trip would cost in Hong Kong and still only half of what it would cost in Sydney.

i've been busy with a million and one things since exams ended. ):

i am tired with the business(not the noun), but yet at the same time, enjoying the momentum of the stuff i've been doing. let's be optimistic lar! (: i did learned new things, i did finally realised how busy nky used to be. i did regretted not putting myself in his shoes;maybe things might not turned out what it has been now uh. (: but then again, it's over. (:

what exactly is the definition of love mans. isit:-

giving in to each other, bearing through each other's flaws and when fights come along, all these flaws, which were once bear through, are then included into one of the reasons for the quarrels. -shake head- at least this is what i eavesdropped from this couple's conversation, or should i say their quarrel when they sat behind me on the bus. terrible. okays, i know it is very unethical to do that, but i need something to replace my battery-dead mp3 player. (:

i think the guy is damn bloody petty. okays, the guy apparently is angry with his girlfriend because she did not honestly tell him that there are guys working at her workplace (guys, use your common sense.. majority of the jobs are bisexual).. and when he went to fetch her, he found out, and caught her talking to another guy. my first thought when i heard that = CHILDISH. (:

secondly, he brought in the issue of him waiting for her to knock off from work. my 2nd impression then was.. for pete's sake, if you want to wait, just shut up and wait. if not, get lost. (:

the last thing(actually that's not the end.. i just find him damn childish and petty and decided to divert my attention to others) was about him being damn hungry(orh! i know why hes so pissed. a hungry man is an angry man - not enough tryptophan, thus leading to less serotonin and ultimately more aggresive! that's what i learned from biopsy. hehe)

OKAYS, and so, the girlfriend FINALLY SAID SOMETHING. she was like asking him not to send her home and go and eat instead. that childish guy said 'you tell me eat what now, there's nothing to eat at this time'. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE.. doesn't he know that theres something called 24hours food centre?! i was amazed that the girl just keep her mouth shut all the way when the guy just blabbered his nonsense throughout the journey.. and i felt like slapping him when he used crude vulgarities on her.

trust me! boyfriends should never use vulgarities on their girlfriends during fights. that is like so insulting to her and displayed a very bad impression on themselves! SIGH. tell me guys, why are you all so damn childish and petty?! and the fact that you guys can bring out the entire of grandmother's history to quarrel about is already very bad. TSK.

by the way, i don't know why are there stupid girls who are willing to give up their virginity for boyfriends, and they are together for less than 1 month. SIGH. disappointing. and i get replies like 'you are just so old fashioned' when i opened my jaws upon hearing their willingness for sex. they think i am stupid, but i think they are stupid instead. OH WELL. (: i still believe i am right, period! i am stubborn. (:

OKAYS, ANYWAY, i am actually unhappy with many things and many people. SIGH. guimei, viviana and nelson knew about it. i complained to them during dinner todae. they still know me best bah. HAHAHA. and they are still the ones i love. (:

i haven't been spending time with my family since thursday. (: and i am glad that it's sunday already, my family day with them. they are still the best in my life. ((:

PRESENTING!!!!

MY LITTLE CUTE LOVER! (: -blush-

WHEEE... i'm looking forward to jose mourinho in joining England as the manager! (:

less than 24hours to end of my last paper. -pat on my shoulder-

you know, i'm just thinking. at this age of mine, alot of my friends are already out in the working society(those graduated from poly), and they are already earning bucks every month. poor me, i'm still stuck schooling, worrying about mid term tests, final year exams, results, projects, understanding lectures and knowledge of the different modules. SIGH.

while studying for emotions, i actually remembered what prof tong said 'life is full of worries, we worry every now and then.' somehow, i agreed with him. since the first day of knowing how to think, i start to worry.

i worried about streaming; getting into EM1/2.
i worried about PSLE; getting into CGS/STC.
i worried about sec 2 streaming; getting into triple science class/double science.
i worried about if i could cope well in triple science class - decided to drop out and went for double science.
i worried about O levels; getting into a poly of my choice/jc.
i worried about promotional exams in jc and especially A levels; getting into university with a course i want or even resorted to searching information for private university.

NOW, in university, i thought worries could come to an end. unfortunately, i've been worrying about how to pull up my CAP for the past 3 semesters, and worrying if a bachelor degree could get me anywhere in the working society in the future. what about the future then? wad other worries can i possibly think of uh. by the way, these worries are a small component of my academic life. there are still worries which comprise of social and my family. (:

anyway, i know of friends who are so stressed and f***ed up with their lives now, come on friends. just relax and don't think so much! everything will be fine! you should just take some time off your BUSY schedule and really relax yourself mentally and physically. (:

the reason why i am still NOT busy is because everyone understands that i've examinations going on and don't really want to disturb me. that doesn't mean they will not disturb me after my exams. YESH. ): after my paper tmr, i've like meetings on 3 consecutive days, with immediate effect from tmr. BAHH. and next week onwards i need to explain to my new OC about every single detail/thing. ): AND AND AND! trainings for campcraft competition and the restructuring for a new unit with the new OC and the TOs and the CIs. BAHHHH. i am really thinking of procrastinating these.

OKAYS, i am just feeling so emotional abt all the issues after studying my emotion module. (: i will be fine.

Mourinho is the fans' number one choice to be England manager

Former Chelsea boss Jose Mourinho would consider becoming England manager if the Football Association approached him, says his personal advisor.

Eladio Parames says Mourinho has had no contact with the FA and would not go looking for it, but would take an offer of a job seriously if it came along.

"It would be an honour," said Parames. "He likes English football, the people, the country and the players.

"It's something he'd consider but he's not trying to get the FA's attention."

Parames told the Associated Press: "He's not waving his hands in the air, but if he's approached, he'll reply."

Mourinho, who left his job at Chelsea in September, has been heavily linked with the England post since Steve McClaren was sacked on 22 November.

okays, please allow me to explain that the below article does not mirror my needs in life. (: i read this and found it somehow related to what me, vic, serene and kenny talked about when we were drinking coffee at starbucks on sat. (:

poor women, we do really have a market value. -shake head-

kenny was saying how i am being a functionalist. and oh boy, did i frightened you after you heard all my feminist theories(maybe yes uh, that's why you shifted your seat to vic's)

oh well, sad to say, at this moment of time, i've given up on guys. they are such a disappointment i must say. (: maybe like what vic said, i am just unlucky to meet 2 selfish guys. (:

but yes, being functionalist, i've planned out my life timeline well. (:

22 years old: graduate with bachelor degree
23 years old onwards: start my career either as DXO/MSO
26 years old: I WANT TO GET MARRIED AT THIS AGE. HAHAHAHA. SOO!!!! i need to search for my guy at 24 years old!!!!
27/28 years old: I WANT TO GIVE BIRTH TO MY 1ST BABY
29 years old: I WANT MY 2ND BABY! (:
30 years old: independently support a car by myself.

HAHAHAHA. this is madness. BUT I WANT TO GIVE BIRTH AND HAVE A BABY! (: i even resorted to the idea of getting sperm from sperm bank if i can't get married! (: i am serious.

What a woman needs in life

However, there also is a strong element of nurture. Women, of course, lose their sexual market value much quicker than men do. When you are 20, you can have every man, even though it may only be for an episode. But when you are over 40, it is very difficult for you to enter a new long-term relationship with a man who genuinely prefers you over other women.

Yes, you may still be able to find a man. But either he is attracted to other qualities you can provide apart from yourself (e.g. the wealth of your family, or your own wealth), or he is with you because he is not good enough to get a younger woman.

"Younger" is the keyword. Youth, or the beauty of youth, has a magical power over men. And from the end of your 20s, you are discriminated upon because of your age. And this is a discrimination that is much more difficult to legislate away than just lower pay for equal work. Because this discrimination is in the minds of men who feel sexually attracted to younger women. They cannot be forced by the law to be attracted only to women of the same age.

Thus, for married women in their 30s, it is, in most societies, not a realistic alternative to break up a working marriage, just because she wants to experience again the delight of a newly developing romance, and we would not advise a wife to give up easily a working marriage.

Instead, while the working marriage will satisfy the first emotional need (the feeling of security in a stable relationship), the second emotional need (the delight of a newly developing romance) is best met by being unfaithful and having a lover. I am aware that this advice will not be understood by girls and young women who are not yet married. As long as the first emotional need (the desire to have a man forever) is not met, most girls and young women are not aware of the fact that her emotional needs may well split after some years. This is the case because obviously, at the beginning of a romantic relationship of a young woman with a man she wants to marry, both needs are fulfilled in the same person (the romantic need and the need of the security a lifelong union should provide).

For all the above reasons, and even though it will sound strange to some, and immoral to others, I proclaim that a woman needs more than just a husband to have a fulfilled life. She also needs a lover, and quite possibly more than once, especially if the woman is beautiful.