tests are over, at least for 2 modules. (:

and these 2 tests went pretty well. -grins-

i bought the books to read and keep me busy during mid sem break. (: okays, i know i need to study instead of reading my fiction books during the sem break. (: but, there's a rationale behind the phrase semester break uh! (:

alright, anyway, i'm kinda emotionally bothered/triggered.

my neighbour, (okays, not exactly living beside my unit, but she actually lived 4 floors above my family) committed suicide yesterday afternoon. and i didn't know until my bro told me this morning. he was telling me if i did saw the huge dent on the sheltered walk-way. HMM. and we did took the same lift with her on wed, the day before she committed suicide. SIGH, and she told me to study hard. ):

i felt very disturbed when i passed by the walkway and saw that huge dent on the shelter. i mean, SIGH. i don't know. maybe if i did replied her when she told me to study hard, she could reveal that she's going to kill herself and maybe then i could do something uh, at least i could alert her family.

and truthfully, i have the goosebumps all over me when i walked past there. damn. it's going to cause me to have the phobia of walking past there mans. ): and my mum will be so happy because this would give me a good reason for not going home late at night. SIGH

ANW, i was telling vic about this when i met her for the test earlier on. and we were saying that the most disturbing factor is that these people have the courage to take the leap forward and jumped off, but why can't they use this courage to face their lives? ):

the leap that i had to take during the jetty jump(okays, this is way too lousy to compare) was that scary already, me and guimei didn't even dare to jump off the plank and off into the sea, but people like my neighbour could just simply do so. worst, off the building. ):

OH WELL, whatever case it is, i believed that people who resorted to suicide have countless unsolvable problems troubling them. maybe i could stand in their shoes and sympathize this intention to death, but i cannot comprehend the issue of courage which i mentioned earlier on. SIGH

in any case, may the peace be with her family.

this is the least i could do, i guessed - pray. (: