Saturday, January 26, 2008.
serene! i am so apologetic that i kept copying and pasting your entries in my blog! but if you realised, my many resultant states are somehow similar to yours. (: charge me copyright fees next time yah? ((:
yes! i do not need a boyfriend but i need a soulmate.
and i realized, i met one when i was 17 years old.
someone who i can talk everything under the sun with.
someone who is there for me when i need him.
someone who give me advices.
someone who pamper me.
someone who i let go.
it is kind of silly to look back.
but it is nice to know i meet a soulmate before!
:)
it reminded me of him. i teared when i read this from serene's blog. ): i met him when i was 17 too. he pampered me, he cheered me up, he was there to lend me a shoulder, he gave me advices, we talked everything that came into our mind. yet, it ended, with tears still flowing down me whenever i thought of it. i should move on. it's kinda silly to look back and hope that this entire thing could replay again. i know its impossible, but i continue to dwell on it. SIGH.
i'm glad i once had him. the memories are still deep inside me. they activated my tear glands, and deactivate it as well. and they are the co-source to my smiles somehow. yesh, i should wake up. ):
he was once my boyfriend, and my soulmate.
and credits are definitely given.
now, i fear,
even to start anew with anyone else.
even to develop feelings for anyone else.
even to continue my feelings for him.
even to hope for a future with him.
SIGH.
tell me what to do.
ping ping posted at 22:34
