life is that fragile. this is the 1st thing that came into my mind when i heard he passed away on friday night.

he died suddenly, with no medical problems.

and this is the question i asked over saturday's dinner with gui mei and gang - what if you die suddenly? how would your loved ones react to it?

i mean, if i died, okays.. fine! its the end world for me. but what will my family do? they will suffer more than me. ): and i hate to see that to happen. SIGH.

and everyone knows about my unhealthy eating lifestyle. i can eat food that look like a mountain, i can starve myself. i will ask for extra lards to go with my noodle, i will eat french fries every alternate days. AND i start to think. WHAT IF i have heart attack one day? i don't grow fat after eating all these, maybe it's all because the fats are deposited on the blood vessels and arteries.

yesh. i am quite afraid now. and coincidentally, nus sent an email getting people to go for free full body check up. i thought, this is a good chance to really get myself checked, afterall it's free uh. (:

okays, besides this health issue, i thought to myself too. life is so unpredictable. we always wanted to plan our future well, but what if we died the next day, ain't everything go into waste? SIGH. and this remind me of something.

i talked to him regarding his sign on. and i disagreed with all my reasonings and my predicts about the future. he told me, life is so unpredictable, why should we think so much, might as well live life to the fullest every single day. and being ME, i started to debate. now that i thought of life being so vulnerable, maybe what he said makes sense too. SIGH.

oh well, could we just have the planning yet live life to the fullest?

there are people who hated life so much, and wanted to just live every each day as it is. on the other hand, there are people who desired for just a glimpse of life, wanting to just live every each day as it is BUT cherish every moment of it.

why can't Man just be satisfied with what they have?

i just realised that life and death is just a separation of a thin line. it can be that scary. ):

its just merely 1 week since the start of 2008, and i've so much thoughts. i supposed as we grow, we will think of these and appreciate what we have, especially the people around us.

when i heard the death of MC king, the first thing i wanted to do is to make sure my family is alright, and that explained my sudden silence during the bbq, and i so much wanted to head home and hug my parents. HAHAHA. definitely if i do that, they will freak out mans... when i reached home, i saw mummy sleeping in the living room whilst waiting for me. i held her hands and told her to go back room and sleep. as for daddy and brother, i went to their rooms and made sure they are in the room sound asleep. this is my love for them. (: i hope they know.

i love you my dearest loved ones. (:

love,
leepin