although now i'm kinda involved in commercial camps, i still have the love and concern for NPCC. afterall, the latter gave me alot of learning opportunities, my lovely friendships with the many dearies and it aids in my maturation. (:

had my dinner with my sayang CI - ahmad and my two other dearies HOs(much as we like to be labeled as CIs instead) - meera and miss yew. we had our discussion on some of the HOs, and we concluded that we still appreciate our duties as CIs.

coincidentally, my NCO called me and complained to me about unit. i was kinda disappointed when i heard how my new CI tried to abuse her rank and be autocratic and unreasonable. i remembered clearly i had my meeting with them about how they should portray themselves as CI and not try to be funny to punish my girls without any appropriate reasons. and they jolly well know how fierce i can get if i want to be. and i thought to myself, maybe it's time i go back to unit and do something about it. i asked haslinda about it, afterall she's experienced enough to tell me about the solutions and etc. i mean, i wanted to rest and actually i already passed down my baton to my new CIs and HO. but somehow, they screwed it up, big time. ):

yesh. i will go back and do something about it. (: should i try the soft way? or i should stick to my hard way? (: SIGH. i still remembered the times when me and viviana run the entire unit and brought the unit to the heights. that was the glory of the unit mans. we prepared for cc comp, we ran the entire of unit camp. she's the angel who tortured them mentally, i'm the devil who tortured them verbally and physically. OH MAN. i missed that darling.

can i revert to CI? i missed my drills sessions. i missed my commanding sessions. i missed doing PT and 5bx. i missed doing campcraft. SIGH.

i missed npcc, somehow. the hard days with my mates.


and i do miss the old leepin. the one who managed to screw the cadets upside down and made them cried, with them coming back to me at the end of their POP and said 'ma'am leepin, we learned smth from you. thanks. and we love you.'

of cuz there were cases of my girls who came to me and said 'ma'am leepin, stop the torture, we are here not for you to screw us up'. but yet, they still come for trainings and they still love it.

those are the days. i missed the shrewd me.





i've yet to finish my readings.

1) cognitive psy - checked
2) abnormal psy - unchecked
3) case study of ADHD - unchecked
4) pediatric psy - unchecked

and do you think i can finish those 3 items by tmr? obviously not.