i'm in quite a bad state now. SIGH.

i'm just tired and i just need that rest. that explains my hide at home and taking this chance to really relax myself and do things which i enjoy, for i know i don't really have the time to do all these in the upcoming months.

i don't know why i get myself in all these shit. ): first is ARSC. i am quite stupid to not realise that they get me into the committee because they have something up their sleeves. SIGH. then came another event which i kinda regret to be involved as well. and lastly is my unit matters. i had meeting with my OC today. i explicitly told her i want to take a step back. BUT, it was rejected. and i received the email she sent to unit TOs, CIs and my school's CCA HOD, for every matter in the email, i saw the sentence 'any clarification do not hesitate to contact leepin'. SIGH.

these are getting on my nerves. i am getting irritated by all these matters because they make me see ugly sides of people. and they make me feel that i'm losing myself.

somehow i feel that a few of my friends are in the same shoes as me, some of them are in the worse state. what has npcc did to us. SIGH. or maybe this is the month of depression.

i know i will be very irresponsible to leave things like that and enjoy myself. i can't too. i did all these for the sake of friendship as well. if i just leave like that, ain't it going to disappoint them? SIGH.

i just need a break bah. (: let me just enjoy whatever i can for this week and face my situation after that. and if you can't reach me by my handphone, you know i need that break, so pardon me. (: